To the One I Can't Live Without

To the One I can't live without, I woke up this morning with one thing on my mind: the huge gap between us. It's a beautiful day today but I'm at my lowest point today. What happened to us? We spent every waking day talking to each other and couldn't get enough of each other's company. I could always call you and tell you about anything that was bothering me... You didn't hesitate to let me know what bothered you either. Those days were good, I was at my best and never forgot to mention you when people asked for advice or help. You made me feel beautiful. It didn't have to take us being immorally intimate for you to let me know you admired how beautiful I looked while I sleep. My self-esteem was never an issue because time after time, you assured me that my destiny was bigger than I was and that with hard work, dedication and faith, I could achieve anything I put my mind to. I was motivated to do well and gave everything I did to succeed, and I did succeed. That's where my fall began. I got so caught up in how awesome I was that I forgot that it was you who helped me get there. I pushed you away and was too busy to call. I'd see you now and then but for short periods of time and those hours weren't as exciting as the ones we shared when I still held your hand in public with pride. I put myself above you, above all we had, and because I acted as though I no longer needed you, you sat back. You're still waiting for me to notice you watching me and, well, I see you now. The buzz of success is temporary without you... I don't feel beautiful anymore and one too many times I've wanted to die at my own hand. I've cheated on you, and betrayed you in so many ways that I'd rather keep that between us. I've been so caught up in the attention I got from other guys that I forgot that we had something good going on. They took your place and al you did was sit back and wait patiently. I want to come back to you... I want to feel your arms around me again and hear your soothing voice tell me you love me. I miss the laughs we had, and the intimate times we shared... If only I could turn back time's hands... Well Lord, if you're still there, I'm willing to give us another shot... I love you, more than anything...