From My Heart to Your Trash Can

Dear Love, This non-existent love affair started a few years ago. We made magic together and you slowly became my world. It started from MXIt to Facebook to Whatsapp. Every day I looked forward to chatting to you, longing for the chance to actually talk to you over the phone. We were kids living in the same concrete jungle, but your side of the jungle lay far from mine. The distance between us didn't feel real at all because no matter where you were, I could feel your arms around me and you tiny timid voice whispering in my ear... Our genesis was pure bliss, in our little world we became Adam and Eve and together we defined life, and life in abundance. Years passed, we grew up and our bond strengthened with time. The day I got your number I wanted to call and talk to you all night long but I couldn't because I didn't want to seem forward since you were the shy type. Over-powering you never really was my plan even though my heart had over-powered my thoughts and kept pushing me to do the nthinkable just to get through to you and let you know that all I wanted to do, for you, was love you. I had convinced myself that one day I'd be called "Mrs 'You'" and show off the rock you'll give to me after we've said "I do". For days I'd stare at your display pictures and admire how beautifully you were made. My goodness, it was like I worshipped you for a minute but all that didn't really matter because you were all that mattered to me. You were my world, the centre if my universe, the force behind my movement... I guess after giving it up to you things started to change. I haven't spoken to you in three days and, well, I'm tired of waiting. The other day, you'd changed your status message three times and not once did you take a moment to say "Hello" to me. For hours I waited, for hours I wondered why you wouldn't talk to me. "Maybe he's busy", I thought... Three more days go by, I say "hello" and all I got was a "Hi". Immediately I felt my heart break, my mind is racing, trying to figure out how you have the audacity to disrespect me like that. I've waited to talk to you for a long time and all I get is a "Hi"? *Rolling up my sleeves* Oh no, absolutely not! I loved you! How could you not see that?! All the time and effort spends don getting your attention, the late nights I stayed up chatting to you and the weekends I had to put aside only for you to stand me up. I waited... And you never came... I stayed up, kept my phone charged and I waited... So that's why I let you go. This is why I can't have you around anymore because in as much as you bring the best out of me, you've also taken that away from me. Quite frankly I can't have that continue. From here onwards I ride solo. I've deleted you on every social network I could possibly be on where you may be also because I'm tired of waiting... So here it is, the final hoorah, the last song, the nut bust... I'm done. Xoxo The girl with a broken heart...