I Think Love Sucks...

Love sucks! Yeah, I said it: Love sucks! I hate love. In my head, love is equivalent to a school bully making you do things you wouldn't usually do. Love makes one say things they would never say, and you find yourself drawing hearts on assignment pages or the person's name in your study notes. I've been there (or at least I'd like to think I have), and it sucks balls. Big, hairy, stinky balls... Think about it: why do people get so cut up after a break up? I mean, if you weren't happy together then the break up should relieve and not depress you, right? No, it's far from being a relief thanks to Love. Like this example: I was in a relationship with a guy that adored me for a while. We didn't live near each other and whenever he came to see me, it was awesome. Then one day, he told me he didn't love me anymore because he no longer found me physically attractive. Cut me deep, for weeks. Now, people from outside will say, "But Lee, it's for the best because he's an asshole." I agree, leaving was for the best but I couldn't accept it because I loved him. See what I mean? Love will mess with your logic, I tell you. You'll become an idiot for the one you love. You say stupid things, do stupid things and in some cases, the IQ drops. I could do with as many healthy, work-oriented brain cells as I can, thank you. The irony in what I'm saying about love is that I'm having the time of my life. Sure, it may be temporary but I'm having fun. I like the idea of being thought of at random times. I like being told how pretty I look when I've programmed my mind to perceive my reflection as a total mess. I like being told that I'm loved. There's nothing like it... Understood, the greatest love of all comes from above. I can't take God's credit away in the department of love. I just think the love we have for each other differs greatly to large extents. Human love is so flawed that I want to believe that I'm allowed to hate the idea thereof. I want to believe that we have the "love" thing all wrong and may never get it right as long as we have "IF's and BUT's" attached to our love... I want a love that'll make strangers stop and stare. I want my children to look at my husband and I and pattern the love we show one another. I want to be a beacon of love that is flawed, but close enough to perfect that people will envy it. I want angels to sing whenever I look into my husband's eyes, and I want God Himself to continuously say, "This is good!" Whenever we hold hands. That's the love I want... However,as long as I don't have that yet, I still think love sucks. Thanks, bye...